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I Ask That I Do Not Die

—but if I do

I want an open coffin

I am an American poet and therefore open

for business

 

Owls peck the windows of the 21st century

as if looking for

the board members

of Exxon Mobil

who who who who who

 

Listen

my beloved nothings

your seriousness

will kill you!

 

But before you die

my doctors

have prescribed happiness

 

God is a warm brick

or a claw

or the silence that survives

empires

 

An old woman

in the rain with a pot of mushroom soup

is one of God’s

disguises. Her dog

lifts its leg

                  another one of God’s shenanigans

and pushes its nose

into morning’s ribcage

 

I point my hand

                  God this and God that and

when God has nothing

I still have my hairy hand for a pillow

 

Put me in an open box

so when God reaches inside my holes

I can still see

how a taxi makes a city more a city

                  slippers on my feet, and only half

covered by a sheet,

in a yellow taxi

so as not to seem laid out in state

but in transit

Psalm for the Slightly Tilted

This is not
a good year.
But it has
witnesses.

When you see them protest the powerful,
since who else does,
they stand
like flagpoles outside the courthouse
after a northeaster.

They came with
the wrong shoes
for revolution.
Still,
they showed up.

Comfort, Lord,
their bodies—
each a question mark
doing time
as a coatrack,
hung with borrowed jackets.

They are your legion
of bent spoons.
They are the only ones
who showed up—
with their orthopedic flair.

I saw my people lean—
not toward hope but toward each other.
They chant off-rhythm
and mean it.

These are my kind of people:
no tears—just
steam from a kettle
that never quite boils.

In times like these, don’t forget us:
the lopsided
leaning on one another,
like sodden paperbacks
left out on the stoop—
Nobody opens them.
But they still insist
on carrying the plot.

Comfort us standing up—
half scarecrow
half saxophone
with a squawk.
While stiffness becomes state policy,
comfort us sitting—
in that collapse called calm.

In the year they come for us
watch my people
make protest signs
out of old pizza boxes.
Watch—

there are no boring people
which is unfortunate.
You’d think statistically
we’d get at least a few—
one-speed souls
with just meh stuff to do.

But none of them are dull.
Each—
a suitcase
held together
by duct tape.

These are your coffee-stained saints
who rise not with trumpets
but with Advil.
They stand
and wait
creased like maps
of a country
that doesn’t exist anymore.

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I Ask That I Do Not Die

Psalm for the Slightly Tilted

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